i used to belong entirely to everything when i was a child. my pink walls, my dappled kitten, the colours of summer and spring and fall—they were all a part of me, and i a part of them. then i grew up, as we all do, and i stopped belonging. i didn’t fit into the spaces between pine needles and around the emptiness of lazy sunlight crawling through my bedroom window anymore. “don’t give your whole heart away,” they told me. “restrain, limit, contain yourself.” but that was when i belonged entirely to them, rather than to everything else. i long now to be a part of life again—to belong entirely to one moment, be completely present and allow it to fill me. i want to climb onto our second-story roof and watch the sun set and smell the wind and know that spring is coming.